“A week has gone by and I am incredibly thankful for getting through it.  Last week I was burdened down with worry and anxiety.  I prayed about it.  I fasted. I prayed some more, but it seemed like the spirit of worry did not leave me.  You want to know what I think fixed it?  I believe it took me letting go of the control I thought I had.  It took me making up my mind that I was not in control of what would happen next in my story. This was a tough lesson for me because I try to control everything. . .”

 

I wrote that a few weeks ago with the intentions of writing an inspirational blog post about letting go and letting God. In the weeks following that testimony, I went through another fight with depression.  I couldn't get out of bed.  I didn’t leave my room and I let a lot of people down because I didn’t show up.  I did not have peace. I asked the Lord to deliver me from myself and to tell me why I keep going through one battle after another. Why does it seem like things are not getting better for me?

 

And he simply tells me not to worry.

 

I have to admit that I have not kept my eyes on the Lord.  I have not been focused on his word or on his message.  The message of Jesus Christ is that he will never leave us nor forsake us.  The message of Jesus is that he saves, he delivers, and he heals.  The message of Jesus is that he forgives.  So, I ask the Lord Jesus to forgive me for not keeping my eyes on him.  I write this post as a witness that I am changing my mind.  I know that the Lord is for me and it is only myself that can be against myself.

 

Lord save me from myself

 

I want to share the following with you.  It is something that I will print out and read so that I remember the promises of God.  I wrote it a few years ago.  It is what I know . . .

 

I know that all things work together for the good, for those who love God, for those who are the called according to his purpose . . .

 

AND I KNOW

 

That the Lord will never leave me nor forsake me

 

AND I KNOW

 

That my work is not in vain

 

AND I KNOW

 

That the Lord is with me wherever I go.

 

I will be strong and courageous

 

BECAUSE I KNOW

 

That I am the head and not the tail

 

I am above and not beneath

 

I am blessed and highly favored

 

I am blessed when I go in and when I come out

 

I am blessed

 

My joy is in the Lord

 

My strength comes from the Lord

 

I am healed

 

I am a daughter of the most high and so

 

I BELIEVE IN THE PROMISE OF EVERLASTING LIFE!!!

 

I REJOICE IN MY SUFFERING!!!

 

because I will endure through the strengthening of my character

 

I have faith that he chose me for a reason

 

I am his workmanship

 

and he will continue the work in me until his coming

 

I will not throw away my confidence

 

I am more than a conqueror

 

nothing shall separate me from the love of God!!

 

Try me devil and I will go harder

 

Try me and I will speak Louder

 

The Lord is with me wherever I go

 

LETS GO!!!

 

I’m looking for peace this week.  I need the Lord to bring me peace and the only way I can do that is by keeping my mind on him. One of my favorite passages comes from Philippians chapter 4:

 

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Philippians 4: 4-9

 

We have to practice what we believe is true.  I just read in Paula White’s devotional journal, "A New Day Dawning," that we are covered by the blood not just because we believe in the word, but because we obey the word.  Not obeying the word of God means that we are placing ourselves in harms way and out of the protection of the father.  I don’t want to be out of the protection of the father anymore.  I want to live in a peace that surpasses the world’s understanding of peace.

 

Let us continue to walk in peace together

 

I continue to promote and encourage people to seek after the Lord for encouragement, hope, motivation, and food for your soul.  He said that if you really do thirst or if we are too heavy with the burdens of this world, then we can turn to him.  Let us turn to him so that he can restore our souls.

 

 

Here are some more post about finding peace: